Me Me Me Me

I'm not a photographer, just like to simply shoot whatever I feel it's meaningful for me...
I'm not a make up artist, just like to doll up myself and plays with the colors...
I'm not a dancer, just like to work up and sweating in the studio...
I'm not a model, just like to have fun and freeze the memories...
I'm just a ordinary girl who has a big big dream
I wanna travelling all around the world and learning all other cultural and living...
I wanna experience different post of vacancy and doing what other's doing so that I'll be more appreciate in whatever convenience that others had bring to me...
I just wanna be myself and spending my every second in a positive way...
I'm me...

Thursday, 25 August 2011

希望你懂

我妈固执,霸道,不善于育儿教女,爱惹事生非,有时候就像一枚计时炸弹随时随地都会引爆。。。尽管她有再多的不是,因为是我妈所以都忍了,但凡是都会有限度我也承认自己忍耐力不强一旦看不过眼的都会去批评,因为是家人!别人的无知我可以闭上双眼当作看不见,但因为是你我做不到。对家人的期望我没办法设得太低!

我无法理解为什么工作繁忙就不能把自己打扮得体些?以其浪费时间和那些无聊的人说三道四为什么不多花些心思在书籍上?为什么不能控制言辞举止?为什么不听劝?每一次好言相劝的时候就把:“因为生了你们这些小孩所以才会变到今天这副模样!”;“这么辛苦供你读书还不懂得惜福!” 这样的话来抵挡 ,我接受不到!

我讨厌被比较所以也尽量不拿朋友家人和自己的作比较,但有时候就因为自己家人太特别了,我从来没能理解过火的幽默感,明明是关心的却又以像刀般刃利讽刺的话语回话。。。我接受不到!

从上中学开始妈就左右我生活,一直灌输我是要到英国留学的念头,我喜欢的学科不给念,现在却说修这门学问好修那门学问好的!折了我的翼后却告诉我要到哪里都行!口头上说给百分百民主自由,却十分的专制!我已是大学生了却还一天给几十通电话,我的帐号都必须通过你,我的朋友也得通过你,就连我的饮食习惯都想改变,这一切一切都快把我逼疯了。我不反对你想了解我的方法,但有时候我还是需要一些些喘息的私人空间。

我懂,真的懂你的用意,但是我不是扯线木偶,我也有自己的想法,执着,要求,为什么就没人试下了解我,体谅我呢?家人是我的依赖,但我不想把生活的重心围着你饶,我并不觉得你丢脸但有要求就有进步是不是?所以我要的是更多更美好,你可以了解吗?如果令你伤心难过了,对不起。但是这些是我的想法。

Saturday, 2 April 2011

02 April 2011 To my Peter

I had a dream...

A nightmare which I saw my lovely grandpa died inside the dream, caused by accidentally fell down (touch wood and finger-crossed). His soul return and he came back visit me, he hide himself inside the toilet and talking to me, cant remember what did he said, but I'm so glad that I'm always his lovely grandchild no matter in reality or inside the dream. But I really dun 1 2 lose anyone, please stay healthy and take good care of yourself grandpa, please...
Wish that you can stay till hundred and give me the chance to take care of you yea... I love you so so so so much... Miss you

sitting outside waiting for us to came home

photos with little grandchildren

tiger year chinese new year photo

yay~ finally I'm inside the photo too ( taken by kakak, her skill not so bad yea, good job)

The day I left them, taken before flew to UK

Wednesday, 30 March 2011

29/03/2011 ~Partay~


and there's a lovely tea from my house-mate later £(#^.^#)Y

Sunday, 27 March 2011

27/03/2011 Gal's outing

Gathering with one of my primary, secondary schoolmate + college, university senior + hotel's colleague after a long long apart. It's a weird liaison for us to be link in this relationship which we never think of everything will be so coincident.

Still remember that we never have any closely contact since young, she's a talkative and outstanding person in the class but I'm the silence group which like to keep to myself all the time. It change after today's meeting, I'm happy to see her appearance here, feel so good to hang out with her for the whole evening.

Since when friendship plays a big part in my life? Dun care just let it be~I care a lot of you all, every single friend of mine, so if you really wants to be my friend, never ever disappoint me please.
I got a new leng lui friend today~ teheeee~ so so heipie





Wednesday, 23 March 2011

23/3/2011

悠闲的下午,叹着淡淡的绿茶听着爱听的歌,你的留言突然冒出;这有些突然,笑了~喜欢和你聊天,简单的几句心里就会是暖暖的。我不需要固定时间的联系一天一定要聊几粒钟的话;我不需要日记般的每日报告,那些只会让我觉得很无聊。久违的问候才是最棒的!只要是对的人,就算是什么话都不说就静静的待着,都不会觉得尴尬。这样的朋友不用多,只要一个就more than enough!我不懂我们的友谊会维持到什么阶段,经过那么多的不愉快事件后你还在身边就很开心,希望保持现状就好。 

Ling, just wanted to thank you for understanding and be back to my side. You'll always be my no.1. Love you

Monday, 21 March 2011

21/03/2011 我的交友观

我讨厌(其实应该说懒惰去维持吧?)那种婆婆妈妈的朋友联系,我不会主动和朋友联系,也许我没办法记得大家的生日,没办法记得今天约了谁看戏,明天约了谁喝茶,不懂我的都说我爱利用人,爱放飞机~不想隐瞒,突如其来的找朋友才是我的性格。

我可以很姐妹也可以很麻吉,我可以很善良也可以很神秘(阴暗,有点难听==”)其实我更像一面镜子,和谁在一起就会是谁的倒影。

我不会婉转的说好听的话去收买人心,那样太做作了,做人就是要爽快麻!我比较喜欢当个巫婆骑着扫把拿着针到处刺破那美丽却虚幻的泡泡,我宁愿明知道说了真心话后会被讨厌,也不要为了讨人喜欢而说谎!(姐中我毒舌最多次了,她应该很了解我吧)甚至,我会离开那些被发现了缺点给了机会也没法更正的朋友。讨厌的,我没办法为了留住朋友而欺骗自己说没关系。也许是我太固执吧,我无法打破自己的原则!

有怪莫怪咯,朋友们~我很重视大家但我讨厌按牌理出牌!没办法,我就是这么情绪化,慢热而被动的...


Saturday, 12 March 2011

Manchester

God is there for you to hold on

Hold on to what is good, even if it's a handful of earth. Hold on to what you believe, even if it's a tree that stands by itself. Hold on to what you must do, even if it's a long way from here. Hold on to your faith, even if it's easier to let go. Hold on to God's hand.

Wednesday, 9 March 2011

your soul wants the freedom to sing, dance, love

As your body needs nourishment- food, drink, sleep, so does your soul needs nourishment- sing, dance, love. Life is not all work, work is not all hard toil. Nourish your soul with the food that is right for it, for it is the altart of your own inner temple.

Tuesday, 8 March 2011

Dear families, I love you all ♥

和家人在一起时都是最安心的,交通费,住宿费,甚至购物都是家人的!和姐姐每个星期的购物我从来没花过自己的钱;出国旅行我分文都没带,只带了护照厚着脸皮跟着去;学游泳,学画画,学音乐,舞蹈...姐姐全包。所以我最爱和最担心的就是这傻乎乎的姐姐,单纯得有点傻的姐姐!

听见公公,婆婆和爸爸问:“生活得还好吧?”就会眼眶湿湿的。虽然我一向来都很独立,但是,还是很想把帅帅的爸爸和亲爱的公公婆婆带在身边!

我讨厌和妈咪聊天!每一次接妈咪的电话,一定要准备tissue.不管我发在大的脾气,妈咪每一次还是会笑着和我继续聊天和谅解我。我讨厌听她说:
“我在XXX看见好看的衣服,裙子,靴子,想买给你但是不知道你喜欢吗,得空时去逛逛,去逛街购物吧,没关系,女孩子就是要打扮漂漂亮亮,穿漂亮些!”
“还有钱花吗?要我再过些给你吗?”

听到这些我都会很难过~

爸爸妈咪不管再怎么难过都会咬紧牙根,笑笑的面对。亲眼看见家人明明病得很严重却还是起身工作,每次见家人都觉得大家又憔悴了,就会很心痛!花家人辛辛苦苦赚来的血汗钱,我过意不去!我不想和那些尊贵的王子公主作比较,因为我相信他们的心灵生活永远都比不上我所拥有的。被人家当成跟不上潮流的穷光蛋也没关系,因为我所拥有的已经超过我所需要的,有大家在身边就已经是最最最富裕的,所以不需要再为我那么辛苦了!

我每晚睡前都会想象以后的房子和生活,那里有我,有每一个我爱的家人,要筑间茶坊给公公;婆婆的花园要安装足够的水管,那样她就不用为了灌输烦恼了;爸爸的房间要安装家庭式剧院组;妈咪的房间要特制一台大型电脑,旁边就是厨房,玩累了可以去厨房找东西吃;阁楼留给叔叔卷烟子;大姐和二姐的房要有大大的服装间和大大的化妆间;弟弟的房是男子气概的乐器间~大人们的生日和重要节日要怎么庆祝。。。然后再在这幸福的想像中慢慢的睡着。

但,很害怕毕业后挣到的给不到家人舒适的生活,我该从哪里开始努力啊?