21/12/2010 Essex visit

Came to essex visit mummy and uncle together with Eric Yong, Eric Seow and Wei choon. having a great time with them tonight. We chit chat, drink and having dinner together. It's been a long time since our last chat. Really feel sorry to mummy. I swear that I'll put more afford in my study and will make you proud, mummy and daddy. Serious...

7th December 2010

Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision clears only after the eyes are washed by tears.

What I trying to say is don't barred me from everything I try to do, I'll never know what will happened if I never try. Never say no to my proposal! Just let me do whatever I like, just let me be the one I wanna be.

Don't worry, everything will be alright. There's always a solution for a problem. I have to know how to take care of myself and learn to protect myself from being hurt... by learning to the lesson!

Set me free~

7th December 2010

6 more days to go for me to accomplish 3 of my assessments! I really smell the stink of the death! Walao~ need more time ar!!!! Really needs to put a lot of afford in order to work out my project. I need help!

4th December 2010

Feel so energetic and refreshing after a good sick rest. I'm back to alive and trying my hard to finish off my assessment. But one thing I never understand is why I get angry every time receive mummy call? I shouted at her once pick up the phone, and I became so frustrated to listen to her. Well, maybe she is a bit talkative but I really don't understand is that worth for her to receive that kind of rude treatment from me? The answer is obvious, definitely NO, no way! What happened to me?

03th December 2010

Got a call from landlord, Mr. Sunny, stated that the no. 188 is almost ready. Kitchen will be fixed today and I could have a turn a the house tomorrow. Sunday will be the day to move in if there's no any problem found.

Getting myself ready and started to pack my stuff. It really gave me a shock that I live with tons of stuff this few months. Just realised that I owned far too many stuff compare to what I need! Still remember that I only brought one luggage full of basis the time I flew here... maybe it's time to do the budgeting control.

02nd December 2010

Taken a break after long hour working for my assessment with photo viewing in facebook. Awwww~ I really miss Malaysia a lot~ miss all those sweet, sour, bitter, and tough moments!

Seriously miss Malaysia... I miss everything in Malaysia, I miss the stupid weather, I miss those samseng and mat rempit, I miss all those Ane and Opulenge, I miss pasar malam including the stink, I miss my families, I miss my colleagues, I miss my friends, and also I miss my enemies... What if there's a time capsule and I got chance to get back to those date back, I will chose to be nice and appreciate every single moment, serious!

Getting so hard to push myself to this stage all this while but just realise that I'm not satisfied with my current situation, this is not I want! I lost my motivation, I lost my direction! Gave up and surrender to every single challenge in my current life! I'm lost and getting stuck here, middle of the dessert! S~O~S~ Somebody rescue me please! Inspire and direct me to the light, okie?

Don't wannna to waste my time like this and disappoint my family!

wake up Cleo!