21/12/2010 Essex visit

Came to essex visit mummy and uncle together with Eric Yong, Eric Seow and Wei choon. having a great time with them tonight. We chit chat, drink and having dinner together. It's been a long time since our last chat. Really feel sorry to mummy. I swear that I'll put more afford in my study and will make you proud, mummy and daddy. Serious...

7th December 2010

Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision clears only after the eyes are washed by tears.

What I trying to say is don't barred me from everything I try to do, I'll never know what will happened if I never try. Never say no to my proposal! Just let me do whatever I like, just let me be the one I wanna be.

Don't worry, everything will be alright. There's always a solution for a problem. I have to know how to take care of myself and learn to protect myself from being hurt... by learning to the lesson!

Set me free~

7th December 2010

6 more days to go for me to accomplish 3 of my assessments! I really smell the stink of the death! Walao~ need more time ar!!!! Really needs to put a lot of afford in order to work out my project. I need help!

4th December 2010

Feel so energetic and refreshing after a good sick rest. I'm back to alive and trying my hard to finish off my assessment. But one thing I never understand is why I get angry every time receive mummy call? I shouted at her once pick up the phone, and I became so frustrated to listen to her. Well, maybe she is a bit talkative but I really don't understand is that worth for her to receive that kind of rude treatment from me? The answer is obvious, definitely NO, no way! What happened to me?

03th December 2010

Got a call from landlord, Mr. Sunny, stated that the no. 188 is almost ready. Kitchen will be fixed today and I could have a turn a the house tomorrow. Sunday will be the day to move in if there's no any problem found.

Getting myself ready and started to pack my stuff. It really gave me a shock that I live with tons of stuff this few months. Just realised that I owned far too many stuff compare to what I need! Still remember that I only brought one luggage full of basis the time I flew here... maybe it's time to do the budgeting control.

02nd December 2010

Taken a break after long hour working for my assessment with photo viewing in facebook. Awwww~ I really miss Malaysia a lot~ miss all those sweet, sour, bitter, and tough moments!

Seriously miss Malaysia... I miss everything in Malaysia, I miss the stupid weather, I miss those samseng and mat rempit, I miss all those Ane and Opulenge, I miss pasar malam including the stink, I miss my families, I miss my colleagues, I miss my friends, and also I miss my enemies... What if there's a time capsule and I got chance to get back to those date back, I will chose to be nice and appreciate every single moment, serious!

Getting so hard to push myself to this stage all this while but just realise that I'm not satisfied with my current situation, this is not I want! I lost my motivation, I lost my direction! Gave up and surrender to every single challenge in my current life! I'm lost and getting stuck here, middle of the dessert! S~O~S~ Somebody rescue me please! Inspire and direct me to the light, okie?

Don't wannna to waste my time like this and disappoint my family!

wake up Cleo!

30th March 2010 why is a raven like a writing desk?

I have been watching 'Alice in the wonderland' for so many times. 4 times what if I am not mistaken since the first day it start showing until today, yet I still like the movie very very much. The script in that movie which have been tattoo across my heart is the question that hatter asked : 'why is a raven like a writing desk?' What a fantastic question~ a riddle without an answer. It is a meaningless question, but will drive people crazy and truly think about it; just like the moment when you ask if I love you; my answer is ... ... silence... ... or even a full stop...

Do I love you? I think yes, I dun hate you, I like to hang out with you, but I love freedom and thus I cant live together with you... erm... well... I dono... I think I love myself more than anything else.

Why is a raven like a writing desk? ... ...

27th March 2010

After yesterday outing, get to know lots more of other. Feel that everyone of them're so talented and great. Their knowledge, their networking, their communication skill... They are one of the group that I wanted to locked and hold them up forever, hope that nothing bad will happen among our group.

I really need to put more effort in photography knowledge learning. Wanted to model for them perfectly. Have to back up my emotion control and acting skill. Really feel sorry for them for my yesterday performance.

26th March 2010 Date with a kid

Hang out with a great kid today. Happy to be friend with him. Thanks for the treat kid^^

Seriously recommend to watch 'how to train your dragon', really a great movie.

Release Date: 18 March (Digital 3D) & 25 March 2010
Language: English
Subtitle: Malay, Chinese
Genre: Animation, Fantasy
Running Time: 1 hour 35 minutes
Director: Peter Hastings
Voice Cast: Gerard Butler, Jonah Hill, Jay Baruchel.

Synopsis: Based on the book by Cressida Cowell, the story centers around a Viking teenager named Hiccup, who lives on the island of Berk, where fighting dragons is a way of life. The teen's smarts and offbeat sense of humor don't sit too well with his tribe or its chief... who just happens to be Hiccup's father. However, when Hiccup is included in Dragon Training with the other Viking teens, he sees his chance to prove he has what it takes to be a fighter. But when he encounters (and ultimately befriends) an injured dragon, his world is flipped upside down, and what started out as Hiccup's one shot to prove himself turns into an opportunity to set a new course for the future of the entire tribe.

(Source: United International Pictures (Sdn))

24th March 2010 我想要的

好久都没来这里留下我的心声咯，真的好久好久了。前一阵子是真的忙到抽不出时间来，后来却是真的懒了、累了~

在这间家和大家生活了已经有十多年之久，发现这家带个我的只是一些无用的无力感、挫折感~我就好像一只渺小的小蚂蚁24小时随时候命，大人叫我走就走，停就停~就好像天使所谓的小木偶，任人摆布！小时不懂事被骂被打是应该的；现在大了才发现原来不是这样的！人都是自私的，人不为己天诛地灭！偏心、偏见、自我为中心~是在我家处处可见的一个大缺点！我看你不顺眼、做的不符合我的要求就该打，该骂，该被诅咒！你家没钱就该被当下人对待、不该与皇亲贵族相提并论！从头到脚都是会被大家做比较。我讨厌这样的生活环境！我需要推动力~

很多朋友都很好奇为什么身边那么多条件不赖的追求者，为什么不谈恋爱呢？为了摆脱大家只好说自己是同性恋者咯~哈哈
不过老实说就是不想浪费大家的时间精力心思啊！发现自己的要求真的很高，况且我好像很难会喜欢和相信别人耶~我完蛋了啦，搞不好真的是同性恋者！！！我想现在的我需要的是好人缘，对吧？我只想在学业和事业那方面好好努力，赚不错的收入让家人过比较舒服的生活就够了。

Cheers to the single

最近都在阅读女王的书籍，发现她真的很酷、有个性、敢爱敢恨、拿得起放得下简直是我的偶像！

一直很好奇女人为什么到了成年就一定要交男朋友？为什么在一起一段时期后就一定要结婚？大家怎么预定‘适婚年龄’？难道就算心灵未成熟的也一样吗？就算在一起了又怎样？到后来还不是一样要分开！I hate stupid love story！

天使前阵子和动物园先生闹翻了！不过今天晚餐时看见动物园先生和天使又牵着彼此的手了，难道这就是说好了再见还是朋友？！我不明白，放下了不是就该放手了吗？大人的世界真的很难懂，还是单身最好了^^单身万岁

21th Feb 2010 Truth

"Never believe in anybody' This is what Special told me since the first day we met. This is the reality, the ugly side of everyone of the human being. Really, sometimes even I myself also will betray myself! The best timing to see through a person is after something bad happened. Through the way they cover the fact, the way they protect themselves, they way they settle the happening, the way they offer the help, the way they hide, the way they push away the responsibility...

I really fed up with those kind of people! Especially the one that like to act kind and nice in front of people, the one that like to arrange for others but push away all the responsibility with hundreds and thousand of poor excuses, the one that never reflect on themselves after the truth have been revealed yet still bull-shitting around!

Somebody help me please~ I really get sick of all this nonsense, I wanna out from this situation, I wanna stay away from all these people, I wanna stay in peace...Please~ please~ please~

19th Feb 2010 Red alert

Healthcare
After yesterday incident, Esther and I decided to bring Peter and Jane for the blood and urine test, we really worry about both the old man's blood pressure level. Both of them are having insomnia problem which made them could not rest well at night. As the result we managed to convince both of them to follow us to the lab for the test.

This is the 4 person package we took


Eyarck~ urine==''


I was the first to pump the blood T^T




My blood^^


Peter~ next...
Before

After few second


Jane's turn, she's smart because she knew how to take away the concentration on the pain by keep on talking to the doctor.

blood pressure measurement


Esther


Carwash
Lucky rainbow^^ Hope that we will see the rainbow after the storm in the real life as well


Praying









May all the good luck fall on us, please~

p/s: Peter's fall in sick now, hopefully he will recover soon. Dun think too much and have a good rest ya, dear Peter^^

18th Feb 2010 Gangsterism

Yesterday was the birthday celebration of Jane and Peter. Although we cant manage to arrange a big dinner function like previous year due to timing problem, but yet we can feel the happiness from both the old man. They were smiling and really enjoy the celebration.


Unluckily， good thing never fall on us twice. We were shocked from the dream by smash early in the morning. Somebody thrown the brick against our house!

It really gave me a shock once I step out from the room. The glass pieces were smashing on the entire living room.




First room's window was smash and my bed was fully covered by the pieces. I'm so lucky as I manage to get out from it just before the pieces fall down on it.




Angel's car gone as well.T^T Really feel sorry for her and the car.






I couldnt speak any word that time! This was the worse thing in my 22 years live. I did hurt my hands and legs by the pieces when doing the cleaning, it's really hurt but I know that the pain is unbeatable compare to Jane and Peter. Really cant imagine the disappointment and sadness of Jane and Peter. Hope that they wont over-think it and having insomnia problem. Hope that the policemen will manage to find out who's the one doing this and the purpose they do this to us.

17th Feb 2010 Telephone

昨天在面子书留言后，朋友很好奇地问道：妳的电话也真的有够难打，想找妳真的很难。真不明白为什么妳就是不爱传简讯，不爱接电话，从来更不会回电？！真的有那么困难吗？

很多和我比较要好的朋友都知道我一向来都不重视电话的存在的，只要可以拨得通，接到讯号就可以了。近期更加严重，好像从要去新加坡的几个星期前直道昨晚才把电话搜出来charge电。早上比较空闲的时候瞄了瞄电话，发现竟然爆机！几百个漏接电话和一大堆的简讯，实在有够夸张的！哈哈

其实，在还在槟城念书的时候是还蛮喜欢讲电话的，不论和妈咪或是朋友都可以聊个上小时的。除了上课时间外，都是讲电话时间，刷牙、洗澡、吃饭、上网、做功课、开车的同时我也有办法边进行边聊天，还蛮严重的说。曾经在连续两天的周末除了睡觉时间，都是和电话形影不离，第三天还扁头痛、呕吐不止。后来就慢慢的减少了与电话接触的时间直到现在这样。所以不要想偏了，我并不是在逃避谁而一直换电话号码和不接电话哦~只是觉得电话很烦，习惯了不带电话。想找我的话在面子书或email留言,一定会得到回复哦

几年前在巴黎认识的风也曾经说过还以为回来后再也找不到我了，不过连续拨打旧的号码长达一年后终于还是让他听到我的声音，过后又在失去联络，结果到后来还是因为拨打我的旧号码而联系上的。这几年都从来没换过电话，一个是自己第一份临时工时买的，另一个是因为照相素质很好而舍不得换掉。其实还真的考虑过满多次想换新电话的，不过就是舍不得。太多太多悲欢离合、太多太多回忆不想就这么失去，其实发现自己还蛮念旧的麻~

03 Feb 2010 Managing my trip

It nearly kill me when I'm doing my planner for Singapore 4 days 3 nights trip. Have to book for the flight, looking for the places of interest, accommodations and transportations, food, tickets and pass of entry...Should I go for a tourism management course after this?

Managing my booking


Air Asia's boarding pass


Singapore MRT and LRT System Map



Singapore Flyer boarding pass


Sentosa Island's Map

ribbon cookies

1st process done


concentrate~


hungry ghost...eaten raw? It's angle problem~ haha

02 Feb 2010 Fly away

Wake up early morning, stuck in the heavy traffic jam, then come back to my house~ nice trip huh==''
Tada~ our hero of the day: Bro Ming


Breakfast



Waiting at check-in hall



Bro Ming in cute school bag


Funny airasia flight slip~ look alike a receipt


He's checking in d lo (TnT) bye~