10th Jan 2010 Dead and gone

There's lots of stuff annoying potato after came back from the funeral, lots of things awaiting to be update, lots of argument waiting to be settled, fever is attacking~ Argggg, this really drive me crazy! Can I hold my breath for few seconds? Can I clear my mind peacefully before the fire hits? Can I get out of all this nonsense just for a second? Can I? Everything will goes back to zero after the breath is stop, what's the purpose of competing among each other, what's the purpose of back-stabbing each other. I am sick of all this crap!!! We all are living on the same earth,standing on the same land, breathing in the same air, we are from the same Mother!!! Just hope that I can go back to the day we met. If can chose, I will propose myself not to get to know you. I will chose that! then my life will be more peaceful, perhaps! There's a chip in our relationship now, something that I never wanted to see.I do not want this broken relationship, I surrender, I give up! Everything is dead and gone, for me... Our family is closed and dismiss...

Unhappy pistachio~
开心果因该也会不开心吧？它无时无刻无条件的把快乐带给大家，不分你我，不分区域，不分高矮（学历，地位，钱财。。。）但所得到的回报是什么？它也不懂~有谁真正站在它的立场为它想过?有谁试着去了解它?谁？我想它大概只是被利用罢了，对吧？大家只有在不开心的时候才会想起它，雨过天晴时呢？我喜欢开心果，也很爱它，但不想就这样糟蹋它，然后当做若无其事的把它给忘了，还一干二净的！我要为开心果争取它应得的回报，实在是太不公平了！