29/01/2011 I Got a New Friend xD

Jim, one of the photography member I know during photography outing, pin me at facebook all in sudden. We spend almost entire day chatting but doing nothing. It feel very nice to chat with someone actually. I love to do this with him even though I know nothing about him, no pressure, nothing but just simply chat.Seems like I never really talk with other after came to UK. It's really hard for me to open-up my heart to other. It's even more harder for me to get a close friend here due to my ability to see through one's characteristic and personnel so easily. I will just go away from him/her when I found out some bad habit that I dun like to see!

Btw I think that he is not a bad guy. Hope that he could manage to walk out from his grey world as soon as possible. Cheers.

26/01/2011 Nerd in library = a good student?

Today is a good beginning of my change from a lazy gal to a good student. I spent my time in library and trying to do the task given by Tutor for tomorrow presentation. Hope that everything will be alright by tomorrow. I really wanted to put more effort in my study so that I can graduate in time with not really flying colour but at least with a better result.

04/01/2011 Back to school

Finally I'm here @ Wolverhampton after 2 weeks luxury holiday @ Essex. Really never feel like to coming back to this dirty, dull and boring place.

It's the right time to pack my mood and turn myself into the study mode. Have to make myself a schedule for study and work out time table in order to manage my time wisely but before that I have to get my lecture schedule first....

01/01/2011 Happy New Year

People said new year, new hope, but it is not true for me, I still wishing for the old hope: I wish that I could xun xun li li accomplish my study! Aha~ funny right? Erm... maybe I can make another wish for my family... I wish my family will live a happy and healthy life

This noon uncle told me to study hard to life a better live or will be like them have to work hard to earn a living. They start working in the early morning till the late night, there's even don't have the specific lunch or dinner break. After the speech, he suddenly felt sick! It's really gave me a big shock! Watching him losing so much within the x'mas week making my tears rolling in the eyes. It's really tough to be a responsible father, son, boss and a good chef.

Mummy had put in a lot of affordto operate the business as well. She does and plan every big and small matter in the shop. Seeing them working so hard just to provide me a better and comfort study life! They seeing me as their hope! I can feel it from their eyes and their speech. I'm really regret in my previous action, I should have put more afford in my study. I don't want to disappoint them. I will put my effort in my study, promise!

21/12/2010 Essex visit

Came to essex visit mummy and uncle together with Eric Yong, Eric Seow and Wei choon. having a great time with them tonight. We chit chat, drink and having dinner together. It's been a long time since our last chat. Really feel sorry to mummy. I swear that I'll put more afford in my study and will make you proud, mummy and daddy. Serious...

7th December 2010

Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision clears only after the eyes are washed by tears.

What I trying to say is don't barred me from everything I try to do, I'll never know what will happened if I never try. Never say no to my proposal! Just let me do whatever I like, just let me be the one I wanna be.

Don't worry, everything will be alright. There's always a solution for a problem. I have to know how to take care of myself and learn to protect myself from being hurt... by learning to the lesson!

Set me free~

7th December 2010

6 more days to go for me to accomplish 3 of my assessments! I really smell the stink of the death! Walao~ need more time ar!!!! Really needs to put a lot of afford in order to work out my project. I need help!

4th December 2010

Feel so energetic and refreshing after a good sick rest. I'm back to alive and trying my hard to finish off my assessment. But one thing I never understand is why I get angry every time receive mummy call? I shouted at her once pick up the phone, and I became so frustrated to listen to her. Well, maybe she is a bit talkative but I really don't understand is that worth for her to receive that kind of rude treatment from me? The answer is obvious, definitely NO, no way! What happened to me?

03th December 2010

Got a call from landlord, Mr. Sunny, stated that the no. 188 is almost ready. Kitchen will be fixed today and I could have a turn a the house tomorrow. Sunday will be the day to move in if there's no any problem found.

Getting myself ready and started to pack my stuff. It really gave me a shock that I live with tons of stuff this few months. Just realised that I owned far too many stuff compare to what I need! Still remember that I only brought one luggage full of basis the time I flew here... maybe it's time to do the budgeting control.

02nd December 2010

Taken a break after long hour working for my assessment with photo viewing in facebook. Awwww~ I really miss Malaysia a lot~ miss all those sweet, sour, bitter, and tough moments!

Seriously miss Malaysia... I miss everything in Malaysia, I miss the stupid weather, I miss those samseng and mat rempit, I miss all those Ane and Opulenge, I miss pasar malam including the stink, I miss my families, I miss my colleagues, I miss my friends, and also I miss my enemies... What if there's a time capsule and I got chance to get back to those date back, I will chose to be nice and appreciate every single moment, serious!

Getting so hard to push myself to this stage all this while but just realise that I'm not satisfied with my current situation, this is not I want! I lost my motivation, I lost my direction! Gave up and surrender to every single challenge in my current life! I'm lost and getting stuck here, middle of the dessert! S~O~S~ Somebody rescue me please! Inspire and direct me to the light, okie?

Don't wannna to waste my time like this and disappoint my family!

wake up Cleo!