21/12/2010 Essex visit

Came to essex visit mummy and uncle together with Eric Yong, Eric Seow and Wei choon. having a great time with them tonight. We chit chat, drink and having dinner together. It's been a long time since our last chat. Really feel sorry to mummy. I swear that I'll put more afford in my study and will make you proud, mummy and daddy. Serious...

7th December 2010

Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, fail in order to know. Sometimes our vision clears only after the eyes are washed by tears.

What I trying to say is don't barred me from everything I try to do, I'll never know what will happened if I never try. Never say no to my proposal! Just let me do whatever I like, just let me be the one I wanna be.

Don't worry, everything will be alright. There's always a solution for a problem. I have to know how to take care of myself and learn to protect myself from being hurt... by learning to the lesson!

Set me free~

7th December 2010

6 more days to go for me to accomplish 3 of my assessments! I really smell the stink of the death! Walao~ need more time ar!!!! Really needs to put a lot of afford in order to work out my project. I need help!

4th December 2010

Feel so energetic and refreshing after a good sick rest. I'm back to alive and trying my hard to finish off my assessment. But one thing I never understand is why I get angry every time receive mummy call? I shouted at her once pick up the phone, and I became so frustrated to listen to her. Well, maybe she is a bit talkative but I really don't understand is that worth for her to receive that kind of rude treatment from me? The answer is obvious, definitely NO, no way! What happened to me?

03th December 2010

Got a call from landlord, Mr. Sunny, stated that the no. 188 is almost ready. Kitchen will be fixed today and I could have a turn a the house tomorrow. Sunday will be the day to move in if there's no any problem found.

Getting myself ready and started to pack my stuff. It really gave me a shock that I live with tons of stuff this few months. Just realised that I owned far too many stuff compare to what I need! Still remember that I only brought one luggage full of basis the time I flew here... maybe it's time to do the budgeting control.

02nd December 2010

Taken a break after long hour working for my assessment with photo viewing in facebook. Awwww~ I really miss Malaysia a lot~ miss all those sweet, sour, bitter, and tough moments!

Seriously miss Malaysia... I miss everything in Malaysia, I miss the stupid weather, I miss those samseng and mat rempit, I miss all those Ane and Opulenge, I miss pasar malam including the stink, I miss my families, I miss my colleagues, I miss my friends, and also I miss my enemies... What if there's a time capsule and I got chance to get back to those date back, I will chose to be nice and appreciate every single moment, serious!

Getting so hard to push myself to this stage all this while but just realise that I'm not satisfied with my current situation, this is not I want! I lost my motivation, I lost my direction! Gave up and surrender to every single challenge in my current life! I'm lost and getting stuck here, middle of the dessert! S~O~S~ Somebody rescue me please! Inspire and direct me to the light, okie?

Don't wannna to waste my time like this and disappoint my family!

wake up Cleo!

30th March 2010 why is a raven like a writing desk?

I have been watching 'Alice in the wonderland' for so many times. 4 times what if I am not mistaken since the first day it start showing until today, yet I still like the movie very very much. The script in that movie which have been tattoo across my heart is the question that hatter asked : 'why is a raven like a writing desk?' What a fantastic question~ a riddle without an answer. It is a meaningless question, but will drive people crazy and truly think about it; just like the moment when you ask if I love you; my answer is ... ... silence... ... or even a full stop...

Do I love you? I think yes, I dun hate you, I like to hang out with you, but I love freedom and thus I cant live together with you... erm... well... I dono... I think I love myself more than anything else.

Why is a raven like a writing desk? ... ...

27th March 2010

After yesterday outing, get to know lots more of other. Feel that everyone of them're so talented and great. Their knowledge, their networking, their communication skill... They are one of the group that I wanted to locked and hold them up forever, hope that nothing bad will happen among our group.

I really need to put more effort in photography knowledge learning. Wanted to model for them perfectly. Have to back up my emotion control and acting skill. Really feel sorry for them for my yesterday performance.

26th March 2010 Date with a kid

Hang out with a great kid today. Happy to be friend with him. Thanks for the treat kid^^

Seriously recommend to watch 'how to train your dragon', really a great movie.

Release Date: 18 March (Digital 3D) & 25 March 2010
Language: English
Subtitle: Malay, Chinese
Genre: Animation, Fantasy
Running Time: 1 hour 35 minutes
Director: Peter Hastings
Voice Cast: Gerard Butler, Jonah Hill, Jay Baruchel.

Synopsis: Based on the book by Cressida Cowell, the story centers around a Viking teenager named Hiccup, who lives on the island of Berk, where fighting dragons is a way of life. The teen's smarts and offbeat sense of humor don't sit too well with his tribe or its chief... who just happens to be Hiccup's father. However, when Hiccup is included in Dragon Training with the other Viking teens, he sees his chance to prove he has what it takes to be a fighter. But when he encounters (and ultimately befriends) an injured dragon, his world is flipped upside down, and what started out as Hiccup's one shot to prove himself turns into an opportunity to set a new course for the future of the entire tribe.

(Source: United International Pictures (Sdn))

24th March 2010 我想要的

好久都没来这里留下我的心声咯，真的好久好久了。前一阵子是真的忙到抽不出时间来，后来却是真的懒了、累了~

在这间家和大家生活了已经有十多年之久，发现这家带个我的只是一些无用的无力感、挫折感~我就好像一只渺小的小蚂蚁24小时随时候命，大人叫我走就走，停就停~就好像天使所谓的小木偶，任人摆布！小时不懂事被骂被打是应该的；现在大了才发现原来不是这样的！人都是自私的，人不为己天诛地灭！偏心、偏见、自我为中心~是在我家处处可见的一个大缺点！我看你不顺眼、做的不符合我的要求就该打，该骂，该被诅咒！你家没钱就该被当下人对待、不该与皇亲贵族相提并论！从头到脚都是会被大家做比较。我讨厌这样的生活环境！我需要推动力~

很多朋友都很好奇为什么身边那么多条件不赖的追求者，为什么不谈恋爱呢？为了摆脱大家只好说自己是同性恋者咯~哈哈
不过老实说就是不想浪费大家的时间精力心思啊！发现自己的要求真的很高，况且我好像很难会喜欢和相信别人耶~我完蛋了啦，搞不好真的是同性恋者！！！我想现在的我需要的是好人缘，对吧？我只想在学业和事业那方面好好努力，赚不错的收入让家人过比较舒服的生活就够了。